This morning when I woke up, I had a song already stuck in my head. Does that ever happen to you?
Anyways, when I got in the car, I decided to play the song so that I could hopefully get it out of my head for a little while. The song is called New Wine by Hillsong Worship.
I have to be honest, the first time I heard this song, I was skeptical because the lyrics caught me off guard. I haven’t really given a second thought to them until this morning.
“In the crushing, in the pressing, You are making new wine.”
I had this moment of realization that the new wine is the product of a season of pain and hurt. For me, it was last school year.
My second full year as a classroom teacher was infinitely harder than my first year. I’ve had conversations with veteran teachers who said that they had similar experiences in their early career. There was so much going on in my personal life. I was struggling with intense anxiety almost daily and it was bleeding over into my work life. I had lost the passion and vigor for my job, which was increasingly frustrating because I knew that I was doing what I was supposed to where I was supposed to do it.
For me, that was a season of crushing. Of pressing.
And for a while, I didn’t understand the purpose of walking through that season. I was thinking about all of that this morning while listening to that song, and I began asking God why.
He brought Matthew 9: 17 to the front of my mind: “And no one puts new wine into old wineskins. For the old skins would burst from the pressure, spilling the wine and ruining the skins. New wine is stored in new wineskins so that both are preserved.”
You see, seasons of growth aren’t comfortable. But in order to keep moving forward in what we are called to do (whatever that may look like), we have to have new wineskins to hold the new wine that God is making within us. If we don’t make new wineskins (in this analogy, it would be repairing the parts within us that are broken), the new wine (or new seasons and blessings) will burst the wineskins ( or cause a new brokenness).
I’m praying that in the crushing, in the pressing, God is stirring something within your soul. If you are in the midst of this season, I pray that you hold strong to the promise that God always brings us back to wholeness if we let him.
“Come, let us return to the LORD. He has torn us to pieces; now he will heal us. He has injured us; now he will bandage our wounds.” Hosea 6:1
I leave you with the chorus of the song:
“So make me Your vessel
Make me an offering
Make me whatever You want me to be
I came here with nothing
But all You have given me
Jesus, bring new wine out of me”
My prayer is that in the coming seasons, you allow the crushing, the pressing to push you forward into new beginnings.